So the clothes I’m wearing tomorrow are considered typical “female” clothes. Usually, I’d wear these to family things so that I don’t get asked why I look like a boy.
But I feel weird about it because I don’t really dress like other girls. I’m usually in jeans, a t-shirt, and a sweatshirt forever sporting my worn out converse. And for this, I’m seen as less feminine. Which I’m okay with because the idea of femininity freaks me out a little.
I don’t love dresses, skirts, thongs, v-necks, makeup that highlights my features, or anything else especially “girly”.
But my problem is that I don’t identify as a man, either. I personally think I’m more masculine than feminine, but I wouldn’t want to be called “he”. I’m not really comfortable with “she” either, but I don’t want “other” pronouns, so “she” is okay.
I guess I don’t know what I am. I feel stuck in limbo in almost every aspect of my life. I’m not a man, but I’m not a woman. I’m not straight, but I’m not lgbtqa in the respect that I have not idea what label fits.
It’s weird how a damn sweater can’t bring all of this out of me.